for Cloud Prince, after GDA 091210

It's been so long since I cry over something, but tonight I just can't bear it. I'm literally crying when the first note of IHTBY playing on my player. Why Jongwoon, why can't we, your fans, make your dream come true. Why must you lose when you've given your best.

While listening to this song, I remember how fierce the voting competition was; how hard your Korean fans fought till the end to proudly placing your name on the 1st spot. How they lost during some final hours but apparently they made up for it. I have no idea how they could be that amazing; who knows how much they have sacrificed for our precious boy. There might be countless sleepless night, sweats and tears; nobody would ever know. All I can see is LaCrymaMosa, one of your very dedicated international fans who devotes her time and heart just for you. I think of her as the representation of your K-fans because I know they're not less amazing. Seeing how deep she loves you, she must be really hurt to see you went home w/ nothing; it makes me cry too.

Jongwoon, you're well loved and not because of your look or voice only. Your fans love you as a whole, as someone called Kim Jongwoon rather than Super Junior Yesung w/ his handsomeness and artistic voice. I never regret to choose you as my idol; I'm proud tbh. I'm proud to be your fan, to be one of few people who witness your long fight and journey to get into this peak point of your life. The point that you come into w/ sweats and tears while staying honest and caring to others, never give up till now, is my inspiration. Jongwoon, you've proven you carry the fame far more than because you're an idol. You teach me that nothing's impossible, family's most important and friendship is precious. There's so much more you've taught me. If I need to thank God, one of the things is for letting someone like you born and inspire many people like me.

Jongwoon, do you even know how deep your fans love you? Don't you ever feel unloved anymore, don't you ever cry because you feel you have no fans. When you cry, you look like a little fragile kid and it hurts. You might feel disappointed to not winning any awards on GDA but please don't be sad. It's our faults; you've given your best. We're gonna try better next year, so don't lose hope on us....

Oh sucks. Now my brother thinks that I get flu while actually my nose is watery because I'm crying...

It Has To Be Yesung......

Hari yg datar2 & tawar2 saja..

Hari ini ak bgun jam 12.. Gila? ga usa heran.. Sejak mulai liburan maren, ga pernah ak bngun di bawah jam 10, kecuali kalo pegi joging ato renang ma temen2.. Kalau dipikir2 sih ga sehat bangun jam sgini.. Tp klo diliat dr segi lamanya tidur sih sehat banget krn wktu tidur ak ga perna di bawah jam 12, haha.. Kalong banget.. Biasa lah chatting n maen FB mulu sampai lupa tidur..

Abis bangun, ak nyanyi2 ga jlas dulu di tmpt tidur yg brantakan sana- sini.. Sudah nyanyi2, longok2 Hp dlu utk ngecek n bls sms dr si Acong Mel yg lg promosiin no baru ny (wkwk..ampun cong).. Sudah sikat gigi, mandi n ganti baju, jam ud nunjukkin angka 2.. Gila molor banget ak..

Then ak sarapan (mkn siang?) lontong yg ud dibli dr pagi.. Pas ma2 ak lg buka film taiwan, ya uda ak ikut nonton sambil mkn.. Untung ny ga tersedak krn ak makan smbil komenin tu film.. Efeknya ya palingan liur ak terbang ke lontongnya (eh bcanda ding).. wkwk..

Selesai sarapan, ak buka komp utk ol n bikin nih blog.. Uda blg ma Dvica sih semalem klo ak mw bikin nih blog hari ini.. Padahal awalnya sih rada males, biasa lah aku ga ahli buat2 yg semacem ini.. Hehe, sori Dev, tp anyway, thx banget buat bantuannya krn akhirnya jadi juga nih Bloggie.. Meski masi asal-asalan sih..

Selesai ngedit sana ngedit sini.. Akhir nya tiba wktu utk posting sesuatu ke bloggie ku.. Nah ini mulai bingungnya.. Mau tulis apa ya.. Berhubung hari ni ak ga ke mana2 n setenga ari ak ud diabisin utk molor.. Mana molornya ga da mimpi lagi.. Ga ada ide mau tulis apaan..

Sesuda ak timbang2.. Ak mutusin utk nulis seberapa bosennya aku aja ari ni.. Tau2 jadi jg ni posting dengan 6 alinea gini.. Wah bakat ngarang juga ak.. Wahaha.. Yeah not bad for my 1st posting.. I think.. Hehe..